Why can't I stop worrying? What is wrong with me? Why does my heart constantly feel like its about to beat out of my chest?
A huge part of me has always been a worry-wart. Since I was a kid, I remember having these palpitations whenever I worry, my heart beats so fast, so heavily that I feel like its almost better if it had just been ripped out my my chest. And as far as I can remember, this feeling has overcome me for everything - from little things to the big things in life I can't control.
I remember standing at in line during assembly at school feeling this way because I'd forgotten to do my homework or bring a book. No big deal right? Perhaps. But boy did I worry. And imagine how many times a year this feeling overcame me. I wasn't a great student so way too many times.
I remember feeling the this way during my earlier years of taking exams. I have since grown accustomed to them and they no longer rattle me as much these days.
I remember sometimes just sitting around worrying about my mom when she gets a bad cough. She smokes and I worry about more serious ramifications. This same feeling washes over me and I can't shake it off for days.
Today, I sit at my desk, trying to make sense of John Deere's activity based accounting systems and feeling the same way. I'm waiting for a particular response from a particular someone and though I won't get an answer till next week, my heart already feels overwhelmed.
Please send me peace of mind.
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